I am the thinker

The people tell me to get healthy, told me I was skinny, that you have to be thick to get some bit$%s, so I fell into it, what they call the game, I sold my name, I forgot where I came, but I guess you gotta go that route, you have to take that bite, swallow the pill and pray to christ, that this obscure method, where you follow their method, where you chose to erode, the beautiful landscape that you were born with, so you sell yourself for a cheap price, and chose vanity as your vice, the biggest ego lays in the most ignorant beliefs, the road is steep, but sometimes you have to drown in the deep and look up at the beacon you once stood from, so you start back to square one, hopefully you notice, remain focus, meditate and remain in the higher state

Don't say a word

Slowly sinking in gin, stinking of cigarette smoke, but then for one second, the moment froze, alkis would call this a moment of clarity, against the wall of the club, isolated from everyone, red head phoenix grinding, non stopping wining, drunk of wine and gin, bend over, skirt pulling over, red high heels, a highlight reel, the way she slithers like an eel, a perfect feel, round and round like a wheel, I hardened like steel,
I steal her from the club, driving drunk, buzzed, feeling brave to drink impaired, she was drunk as well, one hand on the steering wheel another across her thighs, she looked at me drunk and said "was I alright, did I dance nice?", I replied, you were great, time to get home it is getting late, rainy, drizzle late night drive home, we get through the door, she smothers on the bed, she dances and teases like a whore, a geisha in love, the moment stopped again, touches herself from her neck to chest, then hips to thighs, dimming the light, I can't fight, she struts, shakes her butt, on her fours like a mut, and then we make love, to endless moon, flashes of images, she whispers in her ear "don't say a word", blurry, twisting and turning, alcohol in me burning, yearning to explode, like a cannon, a candid moment, making love on top of the highest mountain, a lonely terrain, make up and lipstick stain, satin sheets, she clutches me deep, her nails digging my back and neck, ear bites, neck bites, I can fight, she can't fight, making love till the fall of the night.

Trouble sleeping

i toss and turn at night, I talk when i sleep at night, that's why i write so deep, it gives me sight when i sleep, like a  single candlelight walking along the long dark cave at night, the smoke puts right away to sleep, it closes my third eye when i sleep, thats why i can't sleep, counting sheep, what do i do when i reach infinity, i drift into a place where i have never been before, it is 4 in the morning, it feels like it is 2, but dreams are where my body stays and sleep, it is where the mind roams free, the third eye turned on, no time, no space, nothing, our connection to the unknown, the unconscious mind awakens, walking on the lake, everything is blurry, i walk on water and sail into the harbour, i walk up a little pass 2 plus 4, my feet are dripping water all over the floor.