Awake or asleep 2

my eyes open to the darkness, i get out off bed, look for my phone on the floor, check the time, its 1 am, disoriented, confused, i don't know what to do, like horses running, thats how i feel, racetrack stampeding, lost, at the window staring, thoughts like a perfect circle, images flashing back and circling, head moving like an owl,howling at the pitch black scene, wondering if this is a dream or am i hanging out of a cliff to where reality sits, to where fantasy ends, but i guess, could it be the stress, the underlying fact that i have stuff on my mind, so i take a shallow breathe for a moment, getting on my knees, staring at the ceiling like i was praying to an omen, lie down and i wish i could plug my ears, cos the sound won't disappear, ringing, tingling, confusion, like fusion explosion when sound meets silence, the boundaries of insanity are limitless, bottomless,walking down the wooden hallway, staring at an old decrepit portrait of myself, so i sleep, continuing the previous dream, only to be floating like air, but only asleep, deep within a realm where our nonconscious dwells,,