break up part 6

enough with pain, enter joy, enough with wallowing, start swallowing the reality, enough with tears, time to switch gears, time to go back to logic, think now with reason, put emotions aside and try to find emotional equilibrium, a state where you are chris again, neutral again, although it hurts, stop whining, start looking forward, a life without her is possible, you've done it for so long, although the road and thought process is long, but it is viable, time to begin the mental operation, OPERATION live without her soft sensations, begin threading the open wound, stitch back up the flesh, the question is how are you going to react, how are you going to act, they say character is knowing what to do when the situation is hard and new, but to be honest, i am not a very good actor, though i may suffer from a product of wasted effort, it was still part of hard labour, at least my formula worked, lots of things just got in the way, school, work, and i hate to say it, so i wont, just want to leave this state of mind, i don't need the button labelled rewind, just press play and let life continue with the days