Just thoughts

dont let the mistakes of the past dictate the outcome of your future, born to succeed but never prepared for defeat, day dreaming at night and having horrormares during the day, sleeping in class hoping the lecture can creep into my cranium as my eyes bounce up and down like a gymnasium, complicated, mind sedated, hoping the angels can save it from the demons that have whispered, oh the perils of having both ears, the right ear for the angels to appear, the left for the devils for pitfalls of allure, can't figure out who to listen to, praying to god to send a messiah, ask why he left us starving around these pariahs, outcasts, search into our deepest outer limits of our consciousness, finding reason to why we stress over electric bills, excess phone bills but still lack social cables, and ask yourselves if you can balance a gram of love diluted with a ton of lust, future on your shoulders as you walk the tight rope of hope, but you ignore me, still talking trivia like the difference between pepsi or coke, face full of make up, lust still flirts with me but i ain't no joke, learned to see past the past, living everyday, trying not to be gassed, trying to outlast yesterday's past, struggling to pass previous days of devious ways, trying to pull open my eyes still aiming for my ankles to be past my pinnacle.