A true bond

please tell me how do i separate lust from my vision, how to i flush out contempt from my system, cos i feel trapped in a prison, i wake up, dream, fall asleep, and eat to this, read, walk, talk, and fight for this, i try to avoid it, but everyone i see does it, or do they, or does the media only portray, but in truth not everyone does it, yes, everyone looks it, but no one understands the essence of it, a true bond, physical marriage, where two become 1, where love and lust cross paths, where in that moment, every seconds lasts, every touch, caress, feels like water under the hot sun, like bliss, eternity within each others arms, walking side by side, see everybody is willing to take the risk, but not willing to face the repercussions, cos once you and her step in, if not done right, it feels like sin, then it burns, then you feel pain, then nothing feels the same, then everything feels fake, then the walls tremble and shake, then the late night calls run out, no more dates for dates, everything is straight to the bedroom where the both of you can escape, conversations feel dull, her voice doesn't seem as lively as before, his voice doesn't seem as exciting, it happened so quick, like lightning, as soon as you let sex in, everything fades, friendship ends, cos you no longer see a friend, no longer see someone you can spend time with, thats the truth, thats what they don't tell you.